Adjusting Expectations

Sometimes the picture inside our heads of the way we think it should be interferes with the reality of the way it just is...

Tonight I am going to bed and thankful that I had a morning at church to be reminded that miracles really do happen and there is a far greater picture than what I can see right now in a lonely moment. Trusting God and building my relationship with him is where the rest of the 'puzzle pieces' are put in place. I have to work on adjusting expectations of myself and let go of this idea of trying to be 'perfect' to be good enough.

Today, I was given an afternoon to make lunch with my kids- Biscuit Pizzas, a mini nap on the couch after we ate, able to play in the sprinkler, have popsicles outside, a crock pot roast with potatoes, carrots and rice, mozzarella green beans, and fresh berries for dinner, and more playtime after that, even craft time in the kitchen!

What I would typically do is beat myself up because it's Sunday evening and I have not scheduled the rest of the week out to a tee, finished all laundry and planned, shopped for and prepped all  meals/food for the rest of the week... oh and heaven forbid I not clean the whole house too right?

Well tonight I am giving myself a break, I did work until 3am last night (a part time job in addition to my full time mon-fri job) and still managed to get up and take everyone to church in the first place. I am going to let go of the PERFECT PICTURE in my head of how 'I think' everything should look and let be what may be.

Now of course I am not going to drop all planning and prepping efforts, that's not in my nature, but I am going to start embracing life a little more and try things differently, hence this blog begins tonight. If we want different results we have to do things differently, right? As I journey along this week, I am moving grocery shopping to Monday night after work, and laundry will fill in through the week... and the picture in my head will reshape itself with a whole lot more happiness! Why?? Because I choose to let it be that way. Creating a Rockstar life in a little less than normal way...

(P.S. I do believe I am experiencing slight chest pains for this bold new step. I mean let;s face it, my usual crazy busy week could be a complete disaster. And on the other hand it could still be a crazy busy week as usual- guess it's good I have dealt with that sort of thing before!