Is it ever going to be my turn?

As I sit in bed sick, probably because I have run myself too hard AGAIN... thinking I can fix everything if I just work a little harder and do things the 'right' way, (whatever the 'right' way is) I end up feeling empty and more frustrated than I began setting the unrealistic goals in the first place.

When will we learn to love ourselves for who we are today, 

not for who we hope we will become someday?

Sometimes this Rockstar mom needs a little less caffeine and a little more love- SELF LOVE. Mother's Day was yesterday and it took a toll on me trying to run all over picking kids up on a day off, after working a gazillion hours, making my rounds and working around everyone else's schedule, that I was exhausted and wanted the one thing money can't buy- A NAP! When is it going to be my turn to have someone by my side to help me or remind me I am a good mom and my efforts are noticed?? Or the hours I put into working are going to pay off with just a slight hope of financial security instead of the fear I face on a daily basis, trying to figure out what is getting paid and what isn't. Then I think about what I have and what I have made it through- more than where I have to go. 

When I did finally make it home, I was so pleasantly surprised by my daughter's efforts to decorate a picture frame and crafts, wrap it all up and surprise me! It suddenly reminded me that I am loved by my sweet kids, even if not always felt. That is when it hit me- They love me for ME- for the me I am RIGHT NOW... they are the very reason I have the title that some beg, borrow and steal for- They call me MOM! I am so blessed to have a chance to build them up and offer them encouragement to live a life full of love and love themselves. They are the ones standing by my side and loving me. They are why I go to work and fight for a strong financial plan. They are the very reason I try to make the best choices I can make, even when it means turning down something that sounds fun for the moment. They are the reason I love being a mom and continue to press on to healthy self care strategies. 

~V